Navigating Withdrawal: My Journey Through Detox and Recovery

Navigating opioid withdrawal was one of the hardest parts of my chaotic use. At some point, it went from just getting high to simply trying to stay well. This struggle complicated and affected every part of my life.

Everything revolved around staying well just so I could work, be present, and function in society. This caused me to miss out on a many things for years. I didn't necessarily want to be high; I just wanted to be able to function without being dope sick.

Kicking cold turkey

I had heard horror stories about "kicking", and I’m sure anyone with lived experience has. I’ve kicked cold turkey a few times. One time, an older guy I used to use with suggested getting over-the-counter meds to “treat symptoms” as best as I could. I am not recommending this path to anyone, as it could be dangerous and life threatening. I am simply sharing my experience.

I took medicine for my upset stomach and aches, drank tea to help me sleep, used heating pads for chills, and so on. I took multiple showers a day and smoked way too many cigarettes. I also relied on anything that could bring me comfort, like movies and food. I tried to immerse myself in those distractions as much as I could.

For me, the mental part was the worst. My brain would tell me this is never going to end. I had to take it one hour at a time, and I would try to give myself something to look forward to. I reminded myself that it was ok to rest. I allowed myself to binge watch shows while my body healed.

Medical detox

Medical detox is a completely different story. In a clinical setting, professionals keep you relatively comfortable and monitor you hourly. They give you medication to manage your symptoms and adjust them as needed.

When I came off Suboxone and Klonopin, the detox lasted a little longer. Suboxone was a lifesaver for my recovery, and I’m not knocking it. But it was tough for me because it took awhile to get medication to help me sleep. Thankfully, today many facilities can help you taper off more easily with little to no detox.

I think the best thing you can do is be honest about your use when entering detox so they can best treat you. Most people working in a detox center have their own lived experience. They can’t help you if they can’t hear you. You must advocate for yourself.

One step closer

The biggest help for me was constantly reminding myself that I was one step closer to this being over. I tried to enjoy the small things as much as I could. I know this is easier said than done. In the moment, it was very hard.

I finally had to give myself a break. I allowed my body to go through the process and the withdrawal to run its course. Advocating for what I needed was a huge help. I can’t say this enough; people want to help you. They just need you to use your voice.